Blake has had the gift of seeing angels and demons with his physical eyes since he was a child. he talked about his childhood and how for a period of 8 years he was tormented by demonic visions in his bedroom. a demon would come to him at the foot of his bed and impart fear over his body or breathe on him. also they would show him horrific images like on a movie screen or do creepy things like make the radio turn on and when Blake would unplug the radio it would continue to turn on. he tried all sorts of things, praying, worshiping, rebuking, saying the name of Jesus, but nothing worked. he said he was too afraid to tell his parents because he thought they would think he was crazy. he told them he was just scared. finally, the family ended up moving to California where they joined a spirit-filled church and Blake began to meet people who were like-minded and could hear God's voice. he began to open up to people about his struggles and also to his parents. after he opened up the tormenting images and attacks went away. he said it still tries to come every year or so but that he rebukes it or ignores it and watches half a movie until it goes away. this was super encouraging regarding my own struggle with dealing with the demonic. although I don't see images like he did I feel them on my face and neck constantly. and the revelation that it took 8 years for him to get free gave me hope that even though it's been about 5 years for me God can still move in my life and set me free. I do talk to people about it, so I know I'm not alone. I don't know what will ultimately set me free, but I'm looking forward to it. maybe I should move to California! haha! :D
anyway, he told several cool stories about seeing angels and demons. after the worship on the first session he said he saw an angel standing in the middle of the church and that balls of fire were coming out of the people worshiping and going to the angel's wings where it turned into incense and ascended up to Heaven. this is awesome because it means our worship activates angelic activity and is a pleasing aroma to the Lord. on another occassion he saw a vision of waves of Glory coming from the stage and coming out to the audience. and just like ocean waves, it would go a bit farther and farther each time it went out, until the whole audience was submerged in Glory waves.
he told an interesting story that stuck with me. he said he was at a pool with his kids one day and he saw a woman in her fifties who had a bunch of tubes under her arms and she would dip her head in the water and swim for a few inches, then abruptly bring her head back up. she did this several times. then Blake began to see what was happening in the spirit. he saw an angel who was standing over her and cheering her on, telling her she could do it (he said he doesn't usually hear the angels or demons audibly but that he can interpret what is going on) and on the other side there was a demon that was mocking and insulting her. and when she would put her head in the water the demon would put a claw in her neck and she would abruptly come back up. and Blake asked the Holy Spirit what was going on and the Holy Spirit explained that she had had a traumatic swimming incident as a child and for years she didn't want to swim, but she recently decided to overcome her fear of swimming. Blake said he later gave a word of encouragement to the woman that it was awesome what she was doing and he said her face lit up. he didn't feel led to give her a prophetic word necessarily. he explained that when he sees the demonic on people he doesn't speak to them about it because it usually does more harm then good.
Blake prophesied over some people in the audience about their personal angel. on the second night I stood in line to get a word from him and just as it was almost my turn (a couple people were ahead of me) the pastor decided to cut it off for the night. but my sister Heather went up to Blake and asked him if he could do one more word for me because it was my birthday in a couple of days. Blake said sure.
he said he saw my angel two different ways. first he saw him holding a bunch of maps and charts. and he felt like that meant that God wants to take me a lot of different places - not just physically but revelatory journeys. He wants to talk to me about different things. he said I'm a deep thinker and God likes to reveal things to me. He's given me a gift of mapping out how I got to where I got. he also saw my angel as the Incredible Hulk...big and beefy and muscular...angry but in a good way. he said I have a gift of breaking through things...breaking through people's walls...that this has to do with a revelatory thing to break through boundaries and things in people to make room for God.
although he didn't speak about my struggles (which was a bit disappointing) he did speak some encouraging things over me. it's awesome that God is taking me on a revelatory journey and that He is going to speak to me. so even if Blake doesn't have the answers, the Lord will reveal the answers to me over time. and God is going to use me to bring breakthrough to people.
Blake did several Q &A sessions. he answered many different types of questions. one theme that came up repeatedly was that for situations where there seems to be no solution, God is inviting us to talk to the Holy Spirit and get revelation from Him. Blake said several times that the best part of seeing in the spirit is not necessarily what you see, but it's about the conversations you have with the Holy Spirit about what you saw. this is because seeing in the spirit is not the main thing, but intimacy with Jesus is and the purpose of seeing in the spirit is to grow closer to Him. although it's frustrating if you don't feel like you hear from God, Blake encouraged us that everyone can see in the spirit. it just takes practice, listening, and paying attention to the smallest impression or vision or word.
there was an activation time at one point. we were told to find a partner that we don't know super well. I ended up with an older lady named Patsi. she was wearing a purple shirt and had white hair. I felt like I saw her wearing a robe, possibly purple like her shirt, and a crown. I also saw a white dog. I saw her standing in a vineyard and working the vineyard. I told her I wasn't sure what the dog represented, but that her working in the vineyard meant that she was fruitful and that she was a good steward of the fruit of the Spirit. she was encouraged by that word and said that she was currently working on a ministry to young women and that she took that as an encouragement that the ministry would be fruitful. she felt the dog represented that she was a daughter of God because she always felt like an underdog growing up but the fact that the dog was white represented victory. I don't know for sure if that was right on, but I'm glad she took it that way. then she gave me her word. she said she saw an airplane taking off and heading into a rainbow. she said she felt like it represented that God was taking me to another level, that new things were going to happen, and He was taking me into my promise. I told her I had been writing songs lately and that I felt like I was going to a new place. I also told her that I would be flying this Christmas to go to San Francisco. and I didn't tell her this but I'll explain it here. I know the rainbow represents the gay pride movement. but I believe it also represents Jesus. so if the world intends the rainbow to mean one thing, God intends it to mean another thing. so it doesn't surprise me that God would give me the rainbow image and that it coincides with going to San Francisco. God understands that what the world intends for evil He can redeem and intend it for good. so that's how I take that.
after the conference and the day before my birthday my sister Heather threw me a party with my cousins. we went out to my cousin Taylor and his wife Jessica's house. several of my cousins were there and their partners. we ate chicken nuggets, chicken strips, and mashed potatoes and other sides (Jessica made some delicious mac and cheese with Velveeta) and then my cousin Brenton led us in worship. it was a beautiful and rare time of fellowship.
yesterday was my actual birthday. it was fun. I had a free dinner at Houlihan's with my friend Madonna (not the pop-star, though that would be awesome too), then went to see a movie called Austenland and ran into a friend named Jessica who joined us and blessed us by buying our tickets and popcorn. during the movie (which is inspired by Jane Austen and especially Pride and Prejudice) there were a couple of scenes where someone had either a shirt or a bumper sticker that said "I Heart Darcy" (referring to Mr. Darcy). see below:
and after the movie we went to a Starbucks and we met a woman in an electric wheelchair whose named was Darcy. she had an autoimmune disease. I asked her if I could pray for her and she said yes. I told her about the scenes from the movie with the "I Heart Darcy" slogan and I told her I felt like God was saying that He loves Darcy. she was encouraged by that and the prayer. it was awesome!
so far my birthday has been ushered in with celebration, worship, feasting, surprises and a prophetic word about my personal angel to boot. and I still have my birthday party coming up here in Fort Worth. and because of the conference, my expectation has been raised for seeing in the spirit realm and/or hearing God's voice. it's been a good time.
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